winter finally came and im relieved yet regretting it...

so is love everything? i think so. i know in this day in age love is so overrated. but i feel like ultimately you cant be happy without ever finding love. but some people feel finding true love isnt everything. finding the one to marry and spending the rest of your life with, having children, making a family, isnt everything. is it close-minded to think that way, that love is everything? i know they say you gotta think realistically, like money for example. you may have found your true love but financially its going to be a hard life with this person. so is it worth choosing love than money? so what is it guys? is love everything? i knwo if i was religious this idea would change. anyway dont yell at me and say "you cant speak for everyone." i know that, but i cant help but think that way.

if you guys havnet tried the rice pudding at rice to riches, you MUST. the tiramisu and cheesecake flavor is orgasmic.

you may say im a dreamer
but i'm not the only one

im a happy duck.

if you guys havent watched "slither" yet, i totally recommend it, if you want a really good laugh. like, haha SNORT laugh. whatever that is.

no more effort. its a waste of my time. some people are just not worth it. some people are just so full of cowpoo, but then i may be one of them.

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TODAI and xmas tree.

the ending math of sushi buffet

omg i am almost its height... his name is Toby btw.

the closest thing to a rainbow for now.

free at last.

if your best friend was addicted to drugs, would you leave his/her side? in the case that you have tried really hard to help that person, but that person just cant seem to get off it. would you keep trying or decide its not worth your time anymore?

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had to post pictures of Money, damn i want a pet...  (id rather have a dog but omg shes so cuteeee!!)

but seriously billy, her name is really stupid... who names their pet money...... i like how her doll is a mouse, so typical. haha.

our famous half-assed see-thru wall

from Nana:

"jinsei wa yarinaoshiga kikutte hito wa yoku iukedo, jinsei wa tsumiageta kako wo dodaini ikiterundakara sou kantan ni wa ikanaiwayo. tsumiki wo kuzusu koto ga yarinaoshidatomo omoenaishi, funbatte tsumiagete ikeba, itsuka risou no katachi ni narunokashirane."

"hito wa jibun no omoidouri  ni nanka naranai. naitemo, sakendemo, sugaritsuitemo."

"aitemo no nozomiwo kanaete agerarenakute kurushii. jibun no nozomiwo kanaete moraenakute sabishii. sonna futari ga isshoni ite tanoshii wake ga nai. donnani hikareattemo otagaino taisetsuna mono wo mitomeaenai aite towa umaku yarenaindato iu koto ni kizuita."

so i didnt get to be a cloud this halloween. sorry to disappoint you all.

i think the one thing ive always been blessed with is friends. (oh and my parents too). you guys rock my world.

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Rathi911: hahaha, i think your face shows a nice shine now
NiNoX0X09l3: really?
Rathi911: It's like you just took a bath and washed all the grease off

oh birryyyy.... i know you meant it figuratively but i still feel offended. HAHAHA

NiNoX0X09l3: i wish i had a
NiNoX0X09l3: oh shit i forgot what its called
NiNoX0X09l3: the running machine
NiNoX0X09l3: not elliptical...
Rathi911: ROFLMAO
NiNoX0X09l3: lol
NiNoX0X09l3: im losing my mind
Rathi911: you mean a ..
Rathi911: crap
Rathi911: i forgot too
NiNoX0X09l3: AHAHAHHAH
Rathi911: i know what you talking about
NiNoX0X09l3: treadmill!!!!!!!!!
Rathi911: treadmill!!!
NiNoX0X09l3: OMG
Rathi911: AHHHHH
Rathi911: hahahaha
NiNoX0X09l3: ahahahahahahahahhaha

gawd.... we are soooooo twins...

sometimes i wonder when do people ever grow up. do they ever? how? how do you grow up? can people change? i think they can. but how much can they change?

and then sometimes i wonder, what does apathy really mean? in the dictionary it says, having or showing little or no emotion; not interested or concerned; indifferent or unresponsive.  sometimes, to me, i feel like apathy is just another word for being bitter.  you dont want to be worried, you dont want to be sad, you dont want to be angry, and you dont want to be jealous. but worst of all you dont want to be happy. doesnt that sound like a person living in a cold, bitter world?  

ive decided what i want to be for halloween. This is what i want to be.

you just gotta keep wiping your ass.